Monday, January 19, 2015

The #WDWMarathon That Wasn't!

It's Marathon Monday! What a better post than my own for #WDWMarathon! It's been over a week now since the runDisney Walt Disney World Marathon Weekend and I still can't wrap my brain around what happen. I've started writing this blog post a million times and then for some reason I can't finish it. It's kind of like the #WDWMarathon. 

The morning of the marathon was race two for me since I was doing the Goofy Challenge. I woke up feeling great, so great that I didn't even feel like I completed 13.1 miles the day before. I still have to write my #WDWHalf recap and I will, but this one had to be first. 

I met up with Megan and Keri since we were all in the same corral and we decided to run together. I was excited about the thought of running with them! It wasn't long before we were at the starting line. The start line that I had been waiting for. It was a glorious sight!
Early into the race, we made a stop at the port-a-potties. You've got to stop when nature calls, right? Before we knew it, we were off and running again. Right at about mile one, my knee just exploded in pain. It was as if a bullet shot out of nowhere and went into my knee. I didn't have a clue what happen. Was it my IT band? But how could it be? Was it from my knee hurting a few weeks back? I was doing my best to keep up with the girls but I was in pain. As we approached the Contemporary on our way to Magic Kingdom, there's kind of like a tunnel. Going down this absolutely killed me. I couldn't even run. It felt like my leg was going to crack in half. That's when I knew I was in trouble. Going up and down or around any sort of incline made the pain unbearable. All I wanted to do was make it to Magic Kingdom. And we did. I can tell from the picture that my smile was about all I could muster at this point.
I decided to part ways with Megan and Keri after the castle. Didn't want to hold them back and I didn't know how much longer I could go. At mile 7 I stopped at the medical tent and got some tylenol and biofreeze. I've never stopped a medical tent before in a runDisney race. This was a first for me. I was hoping this would do the trick to get me back in the game. I started texting my mom that I was in pain and didn't think I would finish. She was more worried about me doing damage to my body and wanted me to stop right then and there. But I didn't. At mile 8, a friend of mine found me and I was all tears. Seeing a familiar face when I was in so much pain was a relief. He stayed with me until around mile 11 and then I told him to go because again I didn't know much longer I could go. I stopped at another medical tent, it was now my third stop..crazy, right? I started to text my husband and he was encouraging me to do whatever I wanted to do, but to also listen to my body. I decided to try and make it to Animal Kingdom. Once I got there, I hobbled my way into the bathroom. It was at that point I realized what bad shape I was  in when I couldn't walk out of the bathroom stall. I was only halfway through and had 13 more miles to go. Dragging my leg the first 13 miles probably wasn't the smartest decision and going 13 more miles was going to be plain stupid. I didn't want to cause more damaged then I already caused. I knew my family was behind my decision. So, I took off my bib and folded it up. My race was over. 

My family came to pick me up at Animal Kingdom. I didn't want to go to the medics, didn't want to be put on a bus, and definitely didn't want to be given a medal. I knew in my heart that if I was going to pull myself from the race it was going to be done my way. And it was. I made it 13.72 miles out of 26.2. When I saw this pic from in Animal Kingdom, it said it all. I felt broken and defeated to say the least. 
So here I am, an injured runner. I still don't have an answer as to what's going on with my knee. It's been a whirlwind trying to figure it out though. At first my doctor thought it was a blood clot and sent me to the ER. Luckily they didn't find a clot. I saw the Orthopedic doctor and he thinks it's either a torn meniscus or stress fracture. I go today for a MRI and I'll get the results this week. Until then I'm on crutches, dreaming about my running days and wishing that things turned out differently. 

Have you ever had a DNF at a race? Has a race ever turned out differently than you expected? How did you handle the disappointment? 

25 comments:

  1. I'm sorry it wasn't the best race for you mama! I know that running can take a toll on our bodies so recovery ain't all that bad for ya now! xo

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    1. Thanks Kat! I appreciate your kind words! xoxoxo

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  2. Oh Ashley. When I saw you had not finished I felt so bad for you. You did the absolute right thing taking yourself out of the race. I can't imagine how hard a decision that was. Hugs!

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    1. Thank you, Bonnie! It was a tough decision, but the right one. Congrats on your finish. I'm SO proud of you!

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  3. I'm so, so sorry, Ashley. You absolutely made the right decision, but I can't imagine how disappointed you must be feeling.

    I hope your knee starts feeling better soon. <3

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  4. Ugh! I'm so sorry about your knee and your DNF! It seems like you made the right call though. Hobbling to finish one race isn't worth risking many races down the line. Really hoping it's nothing serious and you can heal up quickly and get back out there!

    I've never DNFed, but I have had races go horribly when I was expecting them to be great. My confidence was still shot from last April's NJ Marathon going into Disney. That race went so awful that it completely killed the last eight months for me. I kept trying to get things going, but I couldn't. After Goofy, it's clear it really was all mental. It's amazing how much of an effect it can have.

    I think it's important to remember it really is *just* a race. A single race shouldn't be used as an indicator of *you*. You'll bounce back from this, I promise!

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    1. I <3 you, Amelia! Thank you for your comment. I had no idea about your confidence being down from the NJ marathon. You're such a rock star and you killed it at Disney. Congrats on your Goofy finish! Bummed I didn't get a chance to see you!

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  5. Hang in there sweetie! I know it's total sucksville right now but it WILL get better. Having been injured twice already in my short running career I know what it feels like to glare at every runner I'd pass, filled with envy and longing. You really did make a good but hard decision to stop when you did. Fingers crossed that your recovery goes quickly!!

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    1. Thanks so much, Shannon! You are SO right. It is getting better. Thanks for your kind words. xoxo

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  6. Oh my gosh that's so scary! I hope you find out what happened soon! I think you made the right choice pulling out of the race. Hopefully you'll be recovered soon!

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    1. Scary is a good word because it was. I didn't have a clue what happened and still don't. LOL Thank you for your comment!

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  7. I'm so sorry about your knee, Ashley! Injuries really suck. I hope you are feeling better very soon!!

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    1. Thanks so much, Kristin! Injuries are no fun. I'll get there. Congrats on your marathon finish!

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  8. I'm sorry about your knee and that you didn't get to finish the race. Sometimes it's better to listen to your body and know that there are always future races!

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    1. You're so right! There will always be another race and finish line for me! Thank you for comment!

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  9. I'm so sorry Ashley! I hope the pain is better and they figure out what's going on quickly.

    You look great in all your photos! Your hard work is really paying off! :)

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    1. Thanks love! The pain is slowly getting better. I appreciate your kind words. I'm working hard and it's nice to see it paying off. xoxo

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  10. So sorry to hear that the marathon didn't go as you had hoped it would. I know that you trained hard for Goofy, but it sounds like you made the right choice to end the race when you did. Like you said, dragging yourself another 13 miles would have just been stupid.

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    1. Thank you, Kathryn! All the training being done for nothing was hard, but what are you going to do. It was the right call. Thanks for you comment!

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  11. Oh hun, sending you the biggest hugs in the world right now. <3

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  12. So sorry! I can only imagine your pain and frustration! Hope they find out soon what is wrong with your knee!

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    1. Thank you, Amy! They're still trying to figure it out. Right now no news is good news. Thank you for your comment.

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  13. I know that decision was a hard one but you did the right thing. I had an amazing time running the first 7 miles with you. Big hugs :)

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    1. Thanks, Megan! Without you I don't know if I would've lasted as long as I did...LOL Thanks for being there! xoxo

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